Sacrificing All

                                           

   This post has been in "draft form" for over a month now. I'm not quite sure why I have been sitting on this one. It's time to share this with others. But thought I should add this little bit of information. My understanding of Sacrifice has changed since this journal entry from almost 18 months ago. The only thing we truly have to offer is our will. Everything else is not really ours. We are stewards over many things but truly don't own things or people. I tend to be a very open, bold, even boarder on being an over-bearing Lady. Still working on overcoming the last one with the Lord's help. But when it come to share things "online" like this, I tend to shy away. But know I am to share these things, my journey, these learning dreams with others. That all these dreams aren't just for me but for others too.

 

The key is to be guided by the Spirit to what to share, WHEN to share, and how much to share. My Lord is giving me many opportunities to learn this.

                                                   Excerpt from Journal- May 3rd, 2014
Literal fulfillment in dream. It seemed so real. I was in the basement of my childhood home. There were 3 of us. If we stayed together and were united we could of beaten the evil forces, but because I went to the "safe room" and wasn't upstairs with the 2 others, they were taken. I had failed them!

                                                                      Dream shifted-
I was in a chapel for an LDS Fast and Testimony Meeting. There were alot of visitors there. Jennie Corbin was there in the middle section taking the last 3-4 rows with lots of her family there. She was looking and waiting for some special person. The people/families on the left side where I sat were family of Jeanie Anderson. They invited others to come sit by them, they had extra room. It was about 5-10 min before the meeting was to begin. I was telling those near me how my whole family was kidnapped. That is why I was alone. Bishop came in and was looking for me, Brother Bach followed him in, looking grave. They had just got notified that my family was kidnapped and that they were all  killed just minutes ago. They motioned me to come with them and meet out in the foyer. They felt that they needed to let me know and they were going to be releasing me immediently (from my calling of RS President). I just smiled at them and mouth the words, I already know. To which they both had confused looks because at first they didn't see how it was possible for me to know. I them pointed up to the ceiling and they knew that Father in Heaven had let me know. I was calm and collective and so cheerful. They were going to have me bare my testimony 1st. The spirit let me know that. I told Bishop Lemmon he needed to calm down and allow the Holy Spirit to guide him to how the meeting should go and just relax....

    For the opening hymn we sang a song out of a paperback book that a groom from another church had provided, he took out alot of our hymn books and replaced them with his. This meeting was also a wedding celebration for him and his LDS bride. The song had a beautiful message but knew I was to partly share my testimony of the Almighty Living God by music. So while everyone else was singing this song, I started to sing with all my soul all 3 verses of "Teach Me to Walk in the Light." I was showing others the pathway-Personal Revelation-. Others stopped singing to hear me sing.

    I then walked up to the pulpit and said something like the following-there are many of you who have itching ears- want to know what has happened and haven't been able to feel the spirit and worship the Lord your God. They are too focused on the upcoming "bad news." I wasn't going to share with them that info which was my family being kidnapped and killed till the end of my testimony. First I said I didn't want people to tell me "how sad they were for me" because frankly I wasn't sad. I knew God's plan for my family and I. (I knew I would be lonely at times, but that I would be allowed specials visits from them and would have angels administer to me as well.) I told them how the Lord had prepared me for this moment for many years now. That in my learning dreams was the shadow fulfillment and now today is the literal fulfillment

I told them, "Do we really understand what we covenant to do and become? All times, in All places and in ALL things?"

I declared and stood as a witness that I had indeed sacrificed ALL for God and was giving praises to him. I told them I now knew and was part of a small group of people that belonged to the "Fellowship of the Suffering Christ." I was laying the foundation for them.  How the prophecies of the Prophets specifically Isaiah have at least dual fulfillment. I told them of the great love of the Savior.
  This is the 2nd or 3rd dream now I have had where there was a big sacrifice and I was ready for it because of all the shadow fulfillments in my dreams. I had already sacrificed ALL in the spiritual realm. Now (in my dream but thinking it was real) in the physical realm. This is WHY I was calm and at peace because I have already sacrificed ALL in spirit and now I was completing the sacrifice in the physical realm. Making a complete whole. 1st shall become last and last become 1st. My mission was to bring people to Christ to show them the way by my own example. Teach them pure doctrine. I never made any mention of the Church-the Institution. I knew the word Church in the Book of Mormon was about groups of people. End of Dream
 

 Upon waking from this dream and reflecting on the other dreams, thoughts, and impressions over the past few months I feel the Lord is preparing me for completing my sacrifice making it whole and complete. To fulfil it literally. The key for me is knowing when the time comes for this,(whatever that sacrifice is that is asked of me) is coming from Heaven with a surety. I have that great anchor to my soul. I am anchored or nailed to the Savior.... I know my standing with Father and Jesus Christ. I will follow their guidance and council. I want to continue to walk and talk with God (Christ) not only in my dreams but during the waking hours. I hear his voice and try to obey but long for they day when I can see him in the flesh and touch him and laugh with him. Pierce through the veil. I feel that I am now getting ready to abase myself or rather go into the next descent this one even deeper then the one before. How beautiful is the gospel of Jesus Christ. I am continuing to be taught as I ask, seek, and knock. In the name of Jesus Christ, Amen.